i have so many things to say about this time in my life...
and i hope to say them at some point. soon.

but for now i just want to thank my friends and all of the people who have been so wonderful during everything. three months ago i could have never predicted the range of things i have felt and encountered, and i do not know how i would have made it if you hadn't been around to talk with, and laugh with, and cry with.

today's victory was that i got to eat real food.
tomorrow i get to start my meds.
the new normal will start soon. it is coming.

i think i plan ahead pretty well... and then realize i have not. i may have thought about what needs to be done but fully underestimate how long it will take. or how late i will start. or just how much actually must be done. the worst is usually before i go on a big trip, like the time i went to costa rica for 3 months. shorter trips are a little better, but i usually don't get much sleep the night before i leave. this time i will blame the fact that i have never done this before and just really don't know what to expect. it's kind of like baby proofing the house for myself... a little different.
i'm really looking forward to a time when this is done and i'm less tired. that will be a nice time. and i will not take it for granted.

i don't know how long npr will have this available, but i really liked it. give it a listen. there's a lot to think about in here.

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=112563650