disorientation

during this, our final quarter of nursing school, we each do our senior practicum at different sites around the seattle area. i am doing mine in the neonatal intensive care unit at a hospital in the suburb across the lake where i graduated from high school. we need to complete 240 hours--twice as many as most of the other schools in the state--which for me means 3 12-hour shifts each week. (i spend more time with my preceptor than with any other human.) normally this wouldn't really be a big deal, but my shifts are all 7pm to 7am. which wouldn't really be a big deal except that i also have classes during the day twice a week, and also i am still working 24-34 hours per week at children's. any one or two of these things would be fine. putting them all together is tough. i am busy a lot, and my body is completely confused about what is happening. thankfully though, i am now tired enough all the time that i can pretty much fall asleep anywhere at any part of the day or night. waking up is the tough part.

katie and steve have both left now. it's weird and a little sad to know that they're not so close anymore. i fear that i squandered my time with them, a reality that i regret and one that makes me want to call erin immediately. i still haven't even met her newest baby yet, which is simply wrong.

i am supposed to be preparing a presentation on c-sections right now, but i'm finding it tough to focus these days. did i mention that my computer died? as i told renea the other day, when i try to turn it on it says that my "cpu = 0." that seems bad... especially because all of my pictures and lots of my music is on there. sad times. i hope hope hope someone who knows things can fix it.

there are so many things i want to do when i have time again. 41 days, friends. 41 days. hallelujah. i miss life.