snail tracks

i love being a student. i mean, i don't really enjoy a lot of the school part, it feels like busy work sometimes. but i love the schedule. and even with americorps things were so flexible. i could do what needed to be done when i wanted to do it, not between certain hours of the day. which was awesome because i got to travel when i felt like it, and get the summer off, and have so much freedom.

i'm thinking about this because the lady offered me the job. this is the point when i should cheer and be happy just like everyone else is when i tell them, right? but i don't really feel like it. i mean, it's a job in nursing. and it pays really well...
but it sounds like kind of a crappy job. she said it's super busy and stressful. and it's 8-5 m-f. (student nursing jobs are supposed to be three twelve hour shifts.) their staff is totally changing in july too, which she said makes it even more crazy around there right now because people don't know what is coming, and will make it crazy in july because nobody will know what's going on then. she is currently filling two full-time roles herself. i always want the thing but then fear the commitment. i just don't like to enter into things lightly.

i might be crazy.

i watched a snail cross the sidewalk on the way home.
it moved so slowly along its slimy winding path. but it got there in the end.
and also it only had one feeler.