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school! you are the bane of my currently pathetic existence.
what i don't understand is why our teachers have done this to us. why must they always make everything due at exactly the same time? it's just not right. and the really dumb part about it is, once we turn in everything else that is due for the quarter on tuesday, they have then made it completely unnecessary to attend their classes. they have made themselves redundant. (i just wanted to say redundant.) after tuesday we will only have 2 tests left, both in the same class. if i were a betting woman i would bet you all that nobody goes to class anymore. why should they? even when there is a grade at stake the material seems so pointless this quarter. my fear of skipping will probably keep me stuck in those terrible lecture halls anyway. but i'll show them. i'll write you guys letters and read fun books. i'm way behind on my fun reading already. (does the fact that i feel "behind" negate the fun?)

i have decided that i will never feel bad about doing nice things for people. sometimes when i do nice things for people i feel the need to justify it or explain myself to others. sometimes i feel that i have to explain myself even to the person for whom i did the nice thing, which then makes me question if i should have done it in the first place. a girl could drive herself nuts wondering if she should or shouldn't do a nice thing after experiences like that. but the way i see it, people probably just don't get it most of the time because people don't generally tend to do nice things for each other all that often. last year about this time i went on a secret good deed spree. i did a bunch of nice things for a bunch of people, and to this day i'm pretty sure only one of them ever found out it was me. i hope i never get too hurt or afraid to keep trying.

it's late and i'm rambling, so i'll leave you in peace now.