whatcha doin'?

today i woke up late to an empty house. i sat in the living room and listened to the real stereo knowing that there was no chance anyone would walk in halfway through "wait wait don't tell me" or interrupt the flow of "this american life." i read out on the front steps in the sunshine with the door open, not fearing the dog would run out, or thinking i should clean up my breakfast dishes before getting settled out there.
it's nice to have space sometimes and i am going to thoroughly enjoy it until wednesday.

i have so much to do this weekend, though. i'm way behind in school and i have a plethora of scholarship applications due and i have to hurry up and get my junk together so i can get out of the stupid research class they're trying to make me take this summer. please pray that i can get out of the stupid research class they're trying to make me take this summer. it's a whole lot of money for a whole lot of nothing. and i've already done most of it anyway because remember? i already graduated once. and also, you made us take classes very similar in order to get in. right.

how is a girl ever supposed to listen to all of the good music that exists in the world? every now and then i realize that i have missed something huge, like an entire genre, or decade, or something equally as extensive. and then i feel that i not only have to keep up with what's happening now but also catch up on what i missed. i basically realize that i will always be ignorant and outdated, and this fact is true in not only the music world, but also that of books and movies too. i blame school and having to have a real job. that stuff just really gets in the way.