holy day

this is a very strange christmas time for my family. we celebrated 11 days early because of the departure of the ohio crew. at the time things were all too rushed and quick to really feel very christmasy. and now, i know in my mind that this is christmas eve, but i really don't feel very festive. this is also compounded by the fact that i have to work all the time.

also (while i'm being negative nancy here), while this whole snow business is most definitely lovely and festive and very midwestern, it is beginning to get a little tiresome. and the reason is that nobody can do anything when things are like this because the city of seattle does not plow or salt the roads. which = treachery. i have seen more people walking about than ever before, but this has quickly become hazardous as well, as the sidewalks are now simply sheets of ice just like the roads, and they are uneven and bumpy. (but what's a walk about town without at least one good fall?) everyone else i know has had the luxury of getting "snow days," those lovely times of sitting at home in your pajamas and drinking tea and watching the snow fall outside while you're warm and comfy inside. yeah... nurses don't get those. turns out we have to work no matter what. i admit that i have felt more than slightly bitter as my housemates sit around drinking nice libations and making homemade pizza as i trudge out the door to make my icy way to the hospital.

and finally, i am dogsitting for these people who live across the lake, which is really not at all far, yet the previously mentioned weather has lead to some serious headaches in getting there. can i admit that i kind of just really want it to warm up and melt off soon? is that blasphemous?

wow...

and really, none of this should matter on this holy of holy days. it should not keep me from feeling festive or remembering the real point of this season. it should not keep me from enjoying my wonderful family, or from being thankful that i have a job in the first place, or from remembering the one zillion awesome things in this life of mine. i'm working on it.

well friends, i wish you all the best on this glorious and happy day.
merry christmas to you.