sometimes

sometimes it feels as if life is just slipping by, like a school of fish, and i can not grab hold to slow it down.

sometimes it feels like there is no way to take full advantage of every opportunity, meaning that one must either choose to do only one thing really well and miss out on everything else or to do several things sort of alright.

sometimes i wonder if there is something i am meant to do and i am settling for something else, something that is good enough and missing the whole point.

sometimes i wonder what might have been if...

sometimes i wonder what is to come...

sometimes i wish i could do everything and be everywhere instead of having to choose.

sometimes being a grown-up is great, like when you can decide to eat cake for breakfast and your mom won't yell at you, or when you can decide to stay up as late as you want reading a good book and writing all over the pages because you paid for it. but sometimes it is hard. sometimes i think things used to be so much less complicated.

sometimes, maybe even most times, i think too much.