what's the world got in store

just sitting here, learning about sars and other respiratory problems...

why does it always become so difficult to concentrate on things or to care about them at all right around this part of the quarter?
there is so much to get done..

where do you think we'll all be five years from now? sometimes i wonder about things like this. it's easier to guess with some folks than others--people with real jobs and kids and junk generally seem pretty "settled." but for the rest of us...
personally i really don't have any significant commitments or connections to anything or anyone in a single place. the people i love are all really spread out, and most of them i've lived far away from for some/most of our relationships. i don't have a husband or kids or a house or car payments... next year i will graduate with a skill that can be used pretty much anywhere in the world. so what will i do? where will i go? how many of and who among you will keep me around as a part of your lives? and what the heck will each of you be doing?

i know that it's pretty much impossible to predict anything about the future. every time i have ever tried to guess what might happen a million things have come along that i never could have imagined to change things. being here again now is not something i really ever expected.

i like that life can be full of surprises. i like thinking that anything is possible, that there are endless options, that there will always be more to see and try and experience. i even sort of like, despite the way i constantly fight it and struggle against it, that i'm really not in control of things. who knows if i'll even still be alive five years from now...

i think if i survive finals this quarter the odds are looking a little better, though. i'm going to go work on that now.