singin' the blues

i've sort of been in a "mood" the last two days. a bad one, i mean. i'm not really sure why. i think i'll choose to chalk it up to mid-quarter blues. that's way easier than actually figuring out the real problem and dealing with it...

everyone always talks about how great the "fall back" time change is. i will agree that getting a whole extra hour to sleep is pretty magical. not that anyone ever actually uses it. i feel like people always squander the gift that is this extra hour of life. i am no exception, i totally threw that perfectly wonderful and precious hour right to the birds. and they ate it right up like bits of dry bread with their sharp, greedy beaks.
but aside from the potential beauty that is one more hour of life, the thing i hate about daylight savings is what it does to the time that daylight happens. tomorrow the sun will rise at 6:49am and set at 4:56pm. and we in seattle keep losing several minutes every day until the solstice on december 21, when, wonder of wonders, the days again start lengthening. all of this means that there will be some days each week that i will not see the sun at all. and that... that i hate. not that i can entirely blame the time change.

i think that this is partially responsible for my sour mood. as are a great many things much too boring and exhausting to discuss here at this moment. but tomorrow is a new day, i will wake up in the dark and spend the day filling my brain with many new facts and skills on this strange path i am currently traversing.

and yet right now i find myself missing athens, my friends there, matt and kelly, my own personal space, free time, and a great many things that once were. maybe one day i'll learn to be less sentimental, to control my thoughts and stop being the most emotional person you know. but probably not tonight.